follow your heart. hear aRt heart.

this is not shallow or about “famous” people as much as about real human beings that are aRtists who i love the music of and they symbolize following your heart and trusting your gut and dreams- tom petty and tori amos are EXAMPLES of humans who stuck with their passions and manifested their dreams= something i have lost touch with recently and want to get back to it and stop worrying about being labelled a “narcissist by others or by my own dark side internally= maybe i am a narcissist on some level but it’s a coping mechanism for me to feel a sense of “self” and survive and build self confidence etc i guess? i want to just do what i love and drop all the worry and fear. tom petty and tori amos are “heroes” on that level to me) Just woke from a dream where I met tom petty on part of his last tour and his second wife Dana backstage and they asked for my phone number – “they remembered me” and asked why my dad was not with me…I tried to find my good version of my business card and could not find one- had to give them two not great business card versions and hand write my phone number on the card- Dana said give her two copies- we know you’re trustworthy and genuine they both told me. In reality I had interactions with both of tom Petty’s wives – in 1992 his first wife Jane wrote me back a postcard (she used to help run his Encino California fan club) and I had sent hand made postcards everyday for 6 months (with tom petty wearing a hand painted top hat by me on each card) wanting to meet tom and give him a hand painted tom hat I painted…tom did not like to meet fans very often…long story never met him but was happy to get a letter back from his first wife – but then felt embarrassed and stopped writing…then recently his second wife Dana and i said a few words to each other in the “tom Petty nation” group online where she pops in occasionally and she was telling us she could not be at the Gainesville florida tom petty park opening 10/20/18 in regards to everything being connected/synchronicity and she quoted Buddha and told me she was touched by my wisdom and kindness when I mentioned numbers I turn 50 and tom was born in 1950, tom would have been 68 on 10/20/18 and I was born in 1968…long story- the point being follow your heart and do what you love. Made me flash on regretting not going to the 2006 highway companion tour where Stevie nicks was a special guest and my boyfriend at the time did not want to go and he said you go have fun by yourself – I wish I would have gone solo but I missed it. This makes me think of sally field in her new memoir book “ in pieces” talking about staying home instead of going to the ceremony where she was nominated for an acting award for Norma Rae maybe? – with the tv turned down because her boyfriend Burt reynolds went to bed early and told her “Don’t expect to win” – talk about dysfunctional relationships! This is a warning to myself to stop abandoning yourself and honor and respect your talent and desires especially if those close to you do not want to be with you doing things you care about. Time for coffee! Might Expand this post later and add to all my 5 blogs and record for my radio show goddess Kring. Lately I have lost touch with my dreams both sleeping and waking. for those who don’t know i also hand painted shoes for musician tori amos. tom petty and tori amos are my two favorite musical composers/songwriters/singers/performers. two amazing individuals. i have met tori amos 3 or 4 times at “meet and greet” before sound check and gave her hand painted shoes 3 times in person. she wore the shoes i painted for her on stage in 1996 at the paramount theatre in seattle and thanked me from the microphone by name which totally shocked me! i was in the audience wearing hand painted shoes i made for myself while tori amos was on stage wearing the ones i painted for her. sweet moment. i got a back stage pass that night and was able to say hello to tori and share a nice hug with her. follow your heart and trust yourself everyone. find the deeper self within and listen to your own unique voice. be authentic is my advice.