my mom just sent me this lovely quote “Love is the natural condition of all experience before thought has divided it into a multiplicity and diversity of objects, selves and others.” not sure who said it?
i just made another sale! Collage of KRING Designs by Shannon Kringen http://www.redbubble.com/people/shannonkringen/works/12494884-collage-of-kring-designs?p=t-shirt
i think it’s time to get a massage! worth the investment for both mental and physical health. i have ZERO touch in my life aside from petting my cat.
what i am good at is my modeling and artwork. personal life not so much yet…
i don’t want to wallow in darkness, but it does not work to deny the painful feelings i feel. i must be honest with myself about how i feel. i want to give and receive love and heal.
i am sort of close to my mom, dad/step dad, one male friend and i have a few female online friends- but zero females i hang out with in person in seattle. but really i do not hang out with people much. i am very alone. it’s good that i am aware. in a way, figure modeling is bad for me as it allows me to remain remote from others. there to be a silent model. no eye contact, no moving. just sitting there serving the artists as “model”. i play the role of model very well. i am proud of that and grateful to earn money this way….but i am sad about my personal life not being very happy.
was going to a support group today and a spiritual talk but got called in to model for a portrait class (other model cancelled) so changing my plans and making money instead of getting emotional support.
You’re always a day away by Shannon Kringen https://www.flickr.com/photos/shannonkringen/15187968850/
on healing and balancing the open sensitive self with viking strength
to heal from some of the abusive comments i got and deleted and the hate i have read from people online who view me in a the most negative way- i googled “i hate ___________” =various famous artists who are very unique and controversial….i found such awful things being said about all of them. totally helps me know for sure it’s that some people just enjoy judging and putting others down, spreading gossip, exaggerating things-mixings lies in with truth etc and make it sound very dramatic and like some crazy soap opera= and it’s not really personal or my fault….i need to stay strong and keep expressing and creating and not let anyone “shame” me for being who i am and sharing the way i want to.
someone just told me “if you don’t have “Haters”, you’re doing something wrong!” and yes i would agree you are playing it “too safe” when you don’t have haters.
i realize now i have more strength than i give myself credit for right along with my fragile side. i have both a warrior/viking/goddess inside me as well as a delicate, sensitive kind soul- that is easily shocked by cruelty.
i want to stay sensitive and open but also stay strong with a healthy boundary towards those who seem to want to INVADE my space in a destructive way.
(and yes i do have a dark side and have made mistakes in my life- i also do a lot of great things. both. it’s not black or white.) when i do screw up i try to fix the issue- and i admire those who do the same. clean up your mess etc. instead of pointing the blame finger at others…
Multi Media Artist Shannon Kringen
Art Gallery on Fine Art America
Art Gallery on Redbubble
Goddess KRING Music on Bandcamp:
Creative Photographer Shannon Kringen
Books Self Published by Shannon Kringen
“aRt, Identity and the Sacred”
“selfies: outside the box”
Official Art Facebook for Shannon Kringen
thanks everyone who appreciates my expression. and thanks to the haters who give me practice at being stronger and centering myself in love and authenticity.